You are a very special person to me, someone i wouldn't be without. You came into my life when i needed someone to save me to most, you have taken me on a journey filled with love, hate, fear, stress, joy, heaven and hell.
You giving me the biggest and most wonderful gift in the world - two amazing daughters and your heart.
I know i can be a plain bitch at times and be really mean but when the day ends it's you i want to cuddle up with in bed and the first one to see in the mornings. You know all those things i moan about? That some times pisses me off more than it should - that is what i love about you. I love your passion for you hobbies, for your kids. I love how you don't care about anything except us and your family. I admire your strength to carry on when the world throws shit at you. The way you snore at night might really piss me off when i can't sleep but i wouldn't be without it.
Laying in your arms is the safest place i know, hearing your heartbeat is magic in my ears. Seeing you playing with the girls is pure joy. So when i step back and just stand there and look, don't get upset i am enjoying what i see. When i take pictures of you don't get mad, it do it for memories and the girls. So that if one day we are going to loose you they can always look back and see just how amazing you are.
My love for you cannot be written in words, no word is big enough. But i love you, simple as that. Every inch of me loves you. The thought of you not being here breaks my heart. I am lucky to have you in my life, to have you as the father to my children.
You have been standing as my rock through everything, through the losses and gains. We been put through so much in the time we been together that i truly believe we will get through anything as long as we stand together.
Please hear me when i say i am sorry for everything i have put you through, even if it wasn't my own fault. And i am sorry for everything i will put you through in the future. I know you keep telling me to stop being sorry for things i can't control but i need to tell you that i don't mean things i say when i am upset.
Thankyou for what you giving me so far. Thankyou for believing in me when no one else has. Thankyou for being there for me when i need it and thankyou for loving me even when i'm not perfect.
You once asked me why i love you and i told you i don't know i just do - i still don't know why i love you i really just do. Everything about you. I hope i can make you as happy as you make me and that you will love me for as long as we are on this earth. I know i will.
You know me better than anyone else, you know all my weird habits, my cravings, what i really look like in the morning. You have seen all sides of me and you can read me better than i can. But i know you sometimes wonder what's going on in my head and to be honest with you, half the time i don't know. All i know is every time i'm upset all i want to do is be in your arms.
When i say i missed you even though we been together all day it means i missed your hugs and kisses. When you cuddle me i fall asleep because i feel safe. I know space can be tight in bed in the mornings when both girls are laying between us, but i love it. I love looking at all of you, knowing you are all mine and i am lucky to have you all.
This is all i wanted to say to you. All i needed to say right now.
You are the one for me, the one and only. I love you <3
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